Ok, things are falling apart…now what?
I’m a firm believer that things don’t “fall apart”, they fall away. Things that no longer work, things that were built during inauthenticity, and things that are toxic, that’s what “falls apart”. Because even when this happens if you take a look around you at what remains standing, that’s what you can count on as real. Trace those things and people back all of the way and you’ll find your roots.
My roots are horses. Family. True friends. Sunday drives. Writing. These things are the core that all other things are built upon. Out of some sort of obligation to create a picture for the rest of the world, I had suspended these things and allowed in all that was unsustainable so and attempted to build around that. It’s no shocker to me now that the house of cards came down.
Shakespear said that “all the world is a stage, and men and women mearly players”. I know now that he was talking about the stage of life. He was implying that we are the creators and who we allow in as the players creates our Acts and our Scenes. Going back to your roots is a great time to realign and take pause. A time to reconnect to what makes you tick and to use those things as a measure against everything else that attempt to come in. Set clearing can be thought of as a time between acts. A time where the set crew is rearranging the stage according to your instructions as the director and the producer. However, as the producer, you’ll have to take action on how you want the stage set and who you want as the players, or it will be done for you. All the more reason to get back to your roots.
Finding out who you are and what you want out of life by going back to your roots is the only way to make sure that the next act and scene that you create is something that you want to participate in, because there is nothing worse than watching a shitty play.
What lights you up from the inside? What did you love doing when you were a kid? What pisses you off to the point that you need to take action? What do you find yourself doing when you’re well rested and have free time? Go do those things.
If you are accessing my work, then you are being asked to reach higher.